Welcome to Janey Painey’s Puddings and Pie.
First, let get something straight. I am not a foodie. Foodies like to cook. I usually end up charcoaling my food, and live off the ingredients I have in my freezer. Foodies enjoy trying new restaurants and cafes. Whereas (till very rencelty) I dreaded going out. I had Post Tramatic Stress Disorder. I had been a normal happy thirty year olds, and then I wasn’t. In recent years there have been times when I have been too depressed to leave my bed. I have been claustrophobic. I have been agoraphobic. I have cried over the studiest things. I stopped eating. I spent most of my time on my own, or working out. I did what I had to do to stay alive and survive.
Things have been changing very recently. Yes my group of friends have got smaller and smaller, but my relationships have got stonger. I dont get that dreaded feeling because I have to step outside my front door. It has taken me over three years, but I want to live again! I want to learn the cello! And attend a stainglass workshop! I have my freedom back.
Last year, one of my friends suggested we work our way thought the nine best local places, according to the Liverpool Echo, to have icecream (http://www.liverpoolecho.co.uk/whats-on/food-drink-news/ice-cream-liverpool-nine-best-9433846) . It has taken me a while to build up the courage, but a week ago we finally visited Maddie’s Gelato and Waffle Bar, and it was nice (told you I am not a foodie). This is the inspiration behind me starting this blog. Now seems like the perfect time to start. On Friday I am flying to Australia. Over a three week period, I am hanging out with friends and family. But I have 6 days on my own. It had been years since I have travelled alone. And I am scared that I will be too scared to leave the hotel. So here is my plan. I am going to go to different icecream parlours; and pancakes houses; and try different puddings. I know a pudding cant make you happy; it cant give you a hug; and it cant make you feel free. But an icecream sundae can make you excited; a pudding from your childhood can comfort you; and the search for a taste sensesation will set me free.
Im a different person today than I was 4 years ago. But one thing has remained the same. I still love my puddings.